One of my navigators on my journey, who I reached out to for help a few months ago, asked me to make a list of all the things, people, situations, institutions that aggravate me. It has been a horrible work of procrastination that has made me feel awful, and I keep procrastinating it. I'm not sure where this is leading, but I am not enjoying the process. I feel small and whiny and narcissistic, not to mention horrifically avoidant and lazy. 

My return to martial arts has been put on hold physically due to a blown shoulder. I think the universe is bopping me over the head and telling me I'm biting off more than I can chew and need to sit still more. I'll return to this endeavor when things stop breaking, and focus instead on Paying attention. Much of martial arts is about focusing the mind, and one doesn't have to bounce around in heavy cotton pajamas to accomplish that.