Taking stock of life, I see that there are a lot of things that need to change to move toward greater self-actualization. I've been foundering around for the past year, listless and unmotivated. I'm creating this site, this blog to see where it takes me and to keep me accountable. I'll note some updates on different pages here and run a commentary on what is going on. I've got a lot of issues- we all do in our own ways. The big ones for me are that I don't take advantage of the many blessings I have been gifted with, and it is time to change that. I harbor a lot of resentment and frustration, often without any real reason why. I believe that my weight problem is closely interconnected with the resentment and frustration, as well as a hearty deficit in the area of valuing taking care of myself. It is time for the crankiness, the excessive drinking, the mindless eating and allowing the "blahs" to take over my life to end. And so from here, I begin.